April 2003 Archives

Warning: I will go into a complaining rant on this entry.

Damn, it, why does life have to be so darn umpredictable. Why can't everything just go without problems, and everyone be happy? My sister just came into my room asking for directions to the animal hospital. My dog cookie has been feeling sick since this afternoon. He ate a rib bone, and we think it might have splintered, and hurt him inside. He's been vomiting all afternoon, and pooped, blood. My reaction was to be pissed. Pissed because of money. Yeah, the dog is sick, but in animal emergency rooms you pay upfront. It will be even more money that will just go away. It was not a proper reaction concerning the dog, but it was concerning the current situation. Too much stuff to pay, too much stuff to worry about. I have school to worry about, finals are approaching and I have no time to study. I've been working 40+ hours a week, and it's just been so darn stressful. My boss got promoted to a position out of the country, and I really don't like the guy who replaced him. He used to be a rep in my store, he's not bad, but I just don't like the fact that he is not knowledgeable, and doesn't know how to handle things. Also, there is the fact that I am trying to lose weight. While this is not a health factor or anything, it bugs me, and that just adds to the strees factor. Everyone around the house is stressed. I have patience, I am waiting for things to get better, but that still means I am going to be stressed about it, until everything settles. Gaw...

Today, I spent my day filing taxes, and sniffling. I think I just got another of those bugs that are going around. No, not S.A.R.S, but something like the common cold. Sis and mom also cought it, and we all taking tylenol flu, and have a box of tissues matching the room decor. It's fun to drive in the middle of the night to the post office, to file your taxes. There was a whole bunch of people outside, and a postman was collecting alongside the road to make things easier. So places ran out of stamps, which was funny. Although, as long as the papers are marked April 15th, the IRS doesn't care. Ohh, and those were not my taxes, they were my sisters, and a housemate. I filed mine in february, and got my return, and spent it already.

I just sought to expet the thoughts of Puerto Rico from my head, but that is not working. I keep asking questions, and getting favorable answers. I found out that my college credits would transfer there, and I would be able to continue my curriculum in Computer Science. I don't really know what motivates me to consider Puerto Rico. Maybe because it's something new, and revolutionary. I've always lived in the same county since I came to the united states. Before that, I always lived in the same area when I was in Brazil. If I move to Puerto Rico, I won't have my mom or my sister with me. That's going to prove challanging since I always lean on them for support. Then again, it will be something I always wanted. When I came go GSU, I wanted to live in the dorms, but ended up living at home. I want to move somewhere where I can carve my path, and make my mark I think. It's still in the air whether I go or not. I keep saying I am going, but yet keep seeking out the answers on what would happen if I did.

Gaw

Gaw, I can't wait until I am 21. No, I don't really like to drink, but I get a chance to go out to anywhere I want. Hopefully my insurance will drop them, but I doubt it. My birthday is in about a month, and this time I am not having a party. I am going to go eat with my family, and that's it. Maybe I will go out later on, but I don't want to play host to a whole bunch of people I don't care about. Also there is the fact that I would spend a whole bunch of money that I would rather spend on myself. I am going to bye myself a camera, and I don't really care about what everyone gives me. Money would probably be fine, so I can pay bills and stuff. I miss having a digital camera. Although, this new one I am buying is much smaller, and it's easy to carry.

I have to sleep, I really do. Now just my normal sleep, by a long restfull sleep. I slept for 6 hours this past night, but that was barelly enough to keep me awake in class. I would stop writing mid thought, and then I could not remember what else I had to write to finish. My writing was mega sloppy. Well, just a bit sloppier then usual that is. I am sure I can still read it, but to other people it must look like alien writing. Art class was interesting today I have to say. Before the 15th 16th century europeans thought the people outside of Europe looked quite abnormal.Dog heads, pig snouts, tiny people, people with elephant ears. They still thought they were human, and being so, they had the crusaders and the apostoles go there, and convert them to christianism. Amusing, and intriguing at the same time. I wonder if they ever wondered if there was life beyond earth, or cared for it anyways. Ehh, go figure.

I always seem to work better as soon as it's time to sleep. I can write essays, research, and create speeches at that time. The only problem, is that it takes away from my ability to focus in the morning. I drive to school half asleep, and half pay attention to my classes. It's weird, I seem to waste all my time during the day, and at night, I scrunge it all up, and use it. I'm quirky, and need to change this behavior pattern soon. I'm smart, and can get away with it, but better time management would ease the stress, and allow for better learning.

Bleah, I totally missed my alarm clock this morning. Damn that spring forward thing with the clocks. It will take my internal body clock about a week or 2 to finally synch up to the whole ordeal. I am hoping it catches up soon, becase I am nearing finals and do not need to miss any more classes. Not that I've missed any, I've come on time for the past 3 months for every one of my classes.

Here's the breakdown of the A/B class division. I am sure getting an A in my math class, and am pretty sure I will get an A in my english class. My speech class will probably be an A if I do well on my final speech. My art and history class have potential of A's, but I will probably getting a B on those. Ohh well, I don't care much for it anywho. I do like my Art class, it's kewl, but it's so confusing to study for it. As for my history class, I totally get the material, but I just seem to get all boggled on the tests. Ohh well, by the end of April I will pretty much be done with all my classes. I am sooooo glad that only one of my classes has a comulative final. That would be my math class. If I study I can ace all my finals, so woohoo for me *grins*

Well, about 2 days ago, I was at a gas station, since mom needed some cigs. I decided to fill my car up in the meatime. I bought the cigs without a problem, got in my car, and drove off. Ohh, that's the interesting part. I had a hose inside my car, and forgot to take it out. I stopped the car when I heard gasolife jarring from the pump. The stop mechanism shut the valve off. I stopped the car, got out of it, and picked the hose out of my tank. I approached the service counter, and explained the ordeal. He came outside, looked at the pump and said "Ohh, this is gonna cost you." In an American southern accent. Which did not make things better. I had to pay $25 dollars, and just went on my way. The person who was on the other pump, looked at me and symphatized by saying he had done the same thing before. I felt like a complete dork.

Oy, I know post seldomly, but here's what happened in the past week or so. I got myself in a bit of trouble with gossip that got around to the wrong ears. Thank goodness that was all solved amicably. I also came to find out that my boss is finally moving to Puerto Rico to open a store there. He invited me to come over, and I talked about it with my family. I really considered it, but I have too much stuff I have to do here in the United States. Besides, the manager of the store would not authorize my transfer since I am needed at his store. I already met my new manager, which used to be a sales rep for my store. I am glad it's not somebody strange I would have to get used to. Did I mention it's scary that I can have the opportunity to drop everything here and move to another coutry to start something completelly new. Also my uncle came to visit. I saw him a bit and was happy that he came by. My mom was extremelly happy, since she has not seen him for two years or so.

We had a big party for my boss. It was more like a roast, although mostly nice things were said about him. If a few key people were not there, it would have been a complete roast, but some things were rather improper to say. All the people close to him came by, and it was just a big farewell party to him. He had about 16 of the worst shots ever. He was very very drunk by the end of the evening. It was a payback for every time he has gotten a member of his team completelly plastered and feeling like hell. Cheers I say, Cheers *grins*