A weird feeling

At, work I got a mixed response from not going to Brazil. Management seems weary. Mike made a comment "It's ok, even thought you left me high and dry at Christmas" (or something to that effect.) The Ops also made a comment about it. She said in a more jokeful manner, but the atmosphere is not good.

I am pretty sure I will no longer get any vacation requests approved. Next time I will have to quit, and not come back. I wish it wasn't like that, but hey, it's how things go. Grantedn I do get actual vacation time eventually. As far as this break I took is sucks to have a paycheck that is $0. Good thing I have school money, but I have to pay back to loan we took that was to pay the tickets to Brazil. Rendering my money down to a car payment, until next paycheck. The weird thing is that Mike managed to cut my hours 30 minutes below 30. I can't go below 30, or else I lose benefits and insurance. Gaw, does my job even care?

Lisa, again, should come back end of Jan. I am numb to those news, because it's like talking against the wind to someone. Your sounds gets carried in the opposite direction, and never reaches anyone.

Work is so stuck in itself. I need to go in, and move things forward. If I don't do that, things will start turning in the wrong direction. I don't want that, because it just leads to more drudge.