Singularity Obnoxious

I don't wanna being single. I am, but I don't wanna be.

Granted, I don't think I am ready to date. I want to, but I am a bit afraid to do it.

Why am I afraid?

Well, there are reasons. I don't think I am at my ideal weight. I am exercising, and trying get there, but I am not. I am in a datable state people say, but still. Also, I am weary of relationship along with sex. I've just had bad encounters. I have limited experience, but I feel jaded.

It's scary to have to reaproach things. I am very very self-councious about it, and it sucks.

I wish I could get a bit of support on this topic, but I probably won't. Most of my musings disapear into thin air. I am not attempting to be a pitty whore. I just have no single person I can sit down and talk to about my problems. I just throw my problems into paper at times, but still things are not any better.