Work, it gets worse.

Well, on me previous entry, I laid down some basic things that are causing the job to be bad, but there are some details.

When I mentioned that my review was comind, after I had a calm me down talk with my boss, he replied "Ohh yeah, now I got some thing to use." I just fake laughed, and finished the conversation.

Also, to make things worse, we have hired a new rep, and he is on my cube. I mean, his cube, because it's not mine anymore. My computer is not mine anymore. I had my desk, and everything set up, but it's not mine. I have another cube, on the other side of the cubes, with a computer that is old, and slow. I guess I don't care that much to my boss. I wasn't even given the courtesy of being told I was being moved, until I asked.

The feeling of coming to work, clocking in, and going to my own cube was nice. Until, I tried that, and there was someone there. I felt betrayed. I provide support, and help fix mistakes, and I get to lose even more priviledges. Ohh goody, sign me up for another year please.

Ohh, just last week, all the computers were being used on the desk, and I hopped on my old cube, and asked the person sitting there, if I could look something up right quick. To which I got a look, and said nevermind. He then replied, "Thanks." That got to me deep.

Yeah, the reps say thank you for this, and thank you for that. It's just mindless dribble. I do help them, and help them, and help them. It's part of my job to provide support to them.

Really, if on this review, I don't get a raise, I will have to reconsider things. This is my second annual review. I've been there longer than that, but since my job title chanced after I got hired, the review timer got reset to then.

Frankly, I am not all that driven at work. I do my daily tihngs, and fix the daily problems, but come up with nothing new. It felt great one day, when I came on a day off just to finish stuff up. I did things according to what I felt necessary. They all got completed, and it felt nice. It gave my a sense of accomplishment and purpose. I knew my work enviroment was a bit better after that. I wish I had more days like that. Days where I can innovate, and improve. I like having a true sense of purpose, and a goal.

There are many things that need to be changed, and can be changed. One just has to take their time, and plan those changes. Things are usally rushed through, and since issues always escalate, they are half done. I have half done lists, and half done reports, and barelly there issues. There is no cooperation, so things just shift around, with noone really completing it.

My job direcly affects my mood most of the time. And everthing being crappy, really doesn't help things along.

I thought about quitting, and trying to find a new job. It's just not convenient at the time. I still have to finish this semester of school out. While I do it, I need to have a job that is full time. I can't afford a gap in income influx.

As long as I am not stripped of more things that are necessary for me to be effective at work, I will not put my notice in.