October 2004 Archives

Ahh, this past Thursday, I went to Netherworld haunted house with the Alliance crew, and a few extras.

I haven't ever been to a haunted house, and this was fun indeed. I gather it was worth the $15 dollars.

The house was scary, with the usual things popping up at you out of nowhere, mirror tricks, crazy turning halways, and confusing flashing lights. The thing that ALWAYS made everyone run, was the chainsaw. I don't know what the deal is with that, but it's naturally (as far as a man chasing you with a chainsaw) scary. One just has to run when that happens. There were very many stringy and wet things, that touched us, and sprays or water and air. The atmosphere was a creepy fog, that got blindingly dense at times.

I enjoyed being scared, and hell, I paid for it, so I might as well have been.

Afterwards, it was on to Chillis. I don't eat there much, but it was nice. Not everyone that was in the hauted house went, but it was fun regardless. As usual, I barelly remember anyones name. The chatting, and yapping was fun. James brough over his friend Thomas. Poor guy had to go to NY that night, and was going to be driving 14 straight hours. That's just crazy. Also, I can't help to note, that the boy was cute. Granted to say, that we had a good looking group overall.

Fun times, kewl people, Scary house. Gotta love it.

(Ohh, and as far as the tile goes, here's the reason. I was roughly 13 gay guys, one lezzie, and one straigh girl)

Just testing the post by e-mail system.

My My, I've been evil. Not the naughty evil that's good for gossip, but the other kind.

All my worries, and stresses and all that other junk cross over into everything. I don't shift modes from here to there, everything is just there.

At work, I'm being extremelly snappy, and sarcastic to no end, always on edge, pissy, and being an asshole every once in a bit. That's the bad thing about letting everything spill over. It all gets out, whenver the stress goes in, immediatly, and in quite a twisted manner. It does have a slight edge of fun, but it's stressful to act this way. Getting in minor little arguments.

I don't feel like actually working, or doing anything much. I get annoyed by it all, and with every thing that happens, I slowly get worse and worse as the day progresses. I snapped a bit at a coworker or two. I kinda threw the evil marker backwards somewhere near Frantz when he asked for it, not really looking or caring. He asked what was wrong, and as always, I said nothing, it was nothing, just grinning. He told me not to bring my problems to work.

Well, I'm a walking outcome of my problems, which is the bad part. Weirdly enough, mom is behaving in a similar manner around other people. Which shows that I'm not exclusevelly weird.

Anywho, I should be less snappy. That's for sure. The job just kills me by the minute, by the customer, by the transaction, by each word on conversations, and every duty. Not all bad, but all pile up. I have less and less time, and more to think about. Unfortuntelly I don't just think about my section. I'm constantly thinking about 40 other things, many with the store, all at the same time, and it all just keeps fluctuating on my head.

The more I just keep doing the same stuff I'm doing, and don't get a change to improve, change, or forge ahead in aynthing, the more it just drives me completelly freaking nuts.

Now, we'll just have to see what happens. *gwa ha ha*

Okay, so the previously mentioned car issue is solved. After a lot of talking, and my mom going there and talking in person, everything seems to be solved. Rick Case Mazda is to blame, but the Hertz will give me the refund. They are footing most of the refund, since the people at Mazda are sticking with their crappy story.

Well, we still have plenty of talking to do with them, but as for now, the money should be in my account in about a week or so.

Better late, than never.

It's not hectic, and it's not calm. I gotta bitch about some things.

Work: Inventory went ok, but otherwise things were craptastic. A certain manager was being an ass to Suraj. Everyone is equal, and it's unfair to belittle.

Work: We are having a bad inventory number, and many things are missing, that should not have been. We have door people again. That's a pain in the ass. I don't really like standing at the door, but hey, I do. Also, it makes the already extremelly small group of people in the front end strain just a little bit more. Also, there's restrictions on lock-up keys. Only managers have it pretty much. It makes for some fun times when things need to be fetched, but it's to control things disappearing. Just makes things more and more diffucult.

Work: A certain manager again is being a total ass. It pisses me off that he's acting the way he does, and as I said before, he should be canned. I can't do anything to retaliate at the moment, since mom's still not making money. Gawd, and now that Russell is not around, there's isn't a buffer that we can talk to.

Work: With Russell on leave, I'm sure a lot of intereting things will start going on. He does a lot of work, that other people will have to take on, and also put a strain on the manager's schedule, and the front end schedule, since he is a back-up for both areas. But I'm happy for him on the same token, and it was the right decision to do what he did.

Work: Customers are driving me crazy. I don't get mad, I just tune out a little, but it's bad that I do. I seem sad and distant when I do so. It's a dread to go to work. There's no fun it it. Just issues and things going wrong. I want to quit, it's stressful there. Things are not coherent, they don't make sense. There's too much chaos, and nobody follows through, and the problems are just shifted around. Managers do an extremelly crappy job, and don't take care of their duties, or the customers. Just makes a very bad enviroment to work on. Like an old car, with failing breaks, and some noises that beg for it to be looked at.

School: Ehh, still trying to get my focus, but it's just not clicking right yet. There's less to do now, but it fills out my time.

Life: I have more time to go to sleep, but I go to sleep later, I have more time to work on stuff, but I end up doing random things that don't lead anywhere. I tune out, I relax, I try to forget the things that make me tense, but I don't take care of them at times. Many of them I can't control, and the ones I can I just let go.

Life: Money, never exactly out of it, always almost there, and worried about it more than I should.

Car: Damn Rick Case and Hertz people. Damn them. I want my $110 dollas back, I have having to call you both, and getting nothing, absolutelly nothing resolved. Pisses me off like there is no tomorrow. It's such an uncessary worry, that eats me from the inside. I just it dealt with, and the money back in my account. I think I've made over 30 calls already, and it's just driving me nuts. It's a situation that is active on my mind everyday. It's stressful, and I should not let it get to me, but it gets to me really bad. *sigh*

Etc: I'm stressed, that's why I keep desperatelly trying to escape from things. I don't get away from them, but I avoid doing things, because it's all taking a toll. If I don't resolve some things soon, it's just gonna get worse. I'm annoyed, constantly, at many things, and snapping at people, and sometimes I've been an ass. That's unacceptable, but it's a sign that everything is getting to me, and my nervers are raw.

Time flies, plenty fast.

Since the last update...

I've dropped Calc I and Physics I. I was getting too overwhelmed.
I've initiated cutting down hours at work, but that didn't go through.
I've partied with some wondefully gay peeps.
Reaching 174 pounds on the morning after the GA tech gay bash.
Met more new people, that seem nice and kewl.
Got to learn many more things at work (although, that has side-effects.)
Made time to hang out and be social, and actually acomplised that.

Although, I'm still coming off a lot of stress. I've been prone to small errors, and done things, that point to the fact that my brain was starting to burn out. Granted, I would have no problem handling it, but I just needed to make some time for myself, and take a little break. Still too many things to worry about, and the overall financial situation still sucks like there is no tomorrow.

Things I need to do...

Tone up my body, now that I should have some theoretical time to do it.
Help mom out with her job paperwork, so she can make some mad $$$.
Start being a more aggresive guy, in the department of romance.
(I'm missing some guy contact over here, by a lot.)

There's more, but I do have to be a resposible me, and go to class.