It's a mix

It's not hectic, and it's not calm. I gotta bitch about some things.

Work: Inventory went ok, but otherwise things were craptastic. A certain manager was being an ass to Suraj. Everyone is equal, and it's unfair to belittle.

Work: We are having a bad inventory number, and many things are missing, that should not have been. We have door people again. That's a pain in the ass. I don't really like standing at the door, but hey, I do. Also, it makes the already extremelly small group of people in the front end strain just a little bit more. Also, there's restrictions on lock-up keys. Only managers have it pretty much. It makes for some fun times when things need to be fetched, but it's to control things disappearing. Just makes things more and more diffucult.

Work: A certain manager again is being a total ass. It pisses me off that he's acting the way he does, and as I said before, he should be canned. I can't do anything to retaliate at the moment, since mom's still not making money. Gawd, and now that Russell is not around, there's isn't a buffer that we can talk to.

Work: With Russell on leave, I'm sure a lot of intereting things will start going on. He does a lot of work, that other people will have to take on, and also put a strain on the manager's schedule, and the front end schedule, since he is a back-up for both areas. But I'm happy for him on the same token, and it was the right decision to do what he did.

Work: Customers are driving me crazy. I don't get mad, I just tune out a little, but it's bad that I do. I seem sad and distant when I do so. It's a dread to go to work. There's no fun it it. Just issues and things going wrong. I want to quit, it's stressful there. Things are not coherent, they don't make sense. There's too much chaos, and nobody follows through, and the problems are just shifted around. Managers do an extremelly crappy job, and don't take care of their duties, or the customers. Just makes a very bad enviroment to work on. Like an old car, with failing breaks, and some noises that beg for it to be looked at.

School: Ehh, still trying to get my focus, but it's just not clicking right yet. There's less to do now, but it fills out my time.

Life: I have more time to go to sleep, but I go to sleep later, I have more time to work on stuff, but I end up doing random things that don't lead anywhere. I tune out, I relax, I try to forget the things that make me tense, but I don't take care of them at times. Many of them I can't control, and the ones I can I just let go.

Life: Money, never exactly out of it, always almost there, and worried about it more than I should.

Car: Damn Rick Case and Hertz people. Damn them. I want my $110 dollas back, I have having to call you both, and getting nothing, absolutelly nothing resolved. Pisses me off like there is no tomorrow. It's such an uncessary worry, that eats me from the inside. I just it dealt with, and the money back in my account. I think I've made over 30 calls already, and it's just driving me nuts. It's a situation that is active on my mind everyday. It's stressful, and I should not let it get to me, but it gets to me really bad. *sigh*

Etc: I'm stressed, that's why I keep desperatelly trying to escape from things. I don't get away from them, but I avoid doing things, because it's all taking a toll. If I don't resolve some things soon, it's just gonna get worse. I'm annoyed, constantly, at many things, and snapping at people, and sometimes I've been an ass. That's unacceptable, but it's a sign that everything is getting to me, and my nervers are raw.