Rift

There's a rift. It's getting larger.

Many of my effors are slowly unwinding. My eating is more compulsive, my patience is shorter, sleep is eascaping me, I wake up at night, I try to distract myself. TV is there, the useless part of the web is there. My mind is a blur at times, my focus is not where it should be. I've got things to do, yet, some are just assembled again and again, and I don't follow through to completion. My time seems shorter, more constricted, and I have more things to do.

Taxes are looking dim. We rely on mom getting a decent return to keep things afloat. This year, she didn't work, so she doesn't earn any creadit that can be increased by the fovernment. She made 0 money, and she's getting back 0. It's stressing, how to pay things, it becomes an issue. We are fine for now, but there's isn't a boost to help us this time. We've been through worse periods before, so I'm going crazy over it, but I'm worried about it getting worse.

I need to fix the rift, before I break apart.