September 2005 Archives

Yesterday was a fun day.

I worked as usual, and tried to decide if I was going to be doing the alliance thing that night.

The Atlanta Symphony Orchestra was having "Alsop's Bernstein and Brahms"

I got on the train, and headed downtown. So far, all good. I got there, and I could not contact anyone, since I didn't have their numbers. I started to fidget at that point. Called the numbers I knew, and nothing, they were not going. I end up going in, and see familiar faces, but they are already heading in. Ok, fine, i see more familiar faces, at the box office. I think to myself "All good, I'll be taken care of." Sorry... Wrong.

So, they end up buying the tickets, and head it. I feel a bit let out of that one. Ok, I go to buy the tickets, no problem. Well, yeah, there is. First I didn't remember what I was buying tickets from, and didn't know where to seat. Besides, the ticket lady was rude, and had no patience for my lack of information. I moved aside, tried calling again, nothing.

At this point, I try to buy a ticket again, but the student tickets are to be paid with cash only. Ok, I walk outside for a bit, frustrated, and feeling left out. I would have normally headed home at this point, but the hell wit it, I go in. I ask where there is an ATM, and there is one for my bank, within 25 steps from where I was standing. I get the cash, pay for my ticket, and head in. Of course, since the orchestra had alredy started, I had to waite until the first piece was completed. No problem, with all the time I had lost, I got to the door just as it ended.

Now, here's the awsome part. Remember the first group that headed in, the ones I knew? Well, my sit was exactly the chair near them. It would be the seat I would have gotten, if I had the chance to talk to them.

So, it's just amazing. By the odds, I'm left to fend by myself at first, but all ends up perfectly right anyways.

The pieces are well played, and interesting, and then we left for Taco Cabana.

Taca Cabana was nice, and the food was well prepated. I sat with Joey, Stanley, Tim, Oliver, Marc, and Ithink Christinne. It was fun, and the chats were interesting. Switching from topic to topic, and everyone got a chance to enjoy it. It was a nice social gathering, and we were there for about 2/3 hours. So around 12:55, it's time to head back.

Ohh oh, 12:55!!! I'm sure the train has pretty much stopped running by then.Well at least by the time I get to the station it would have. Ohh boy, what to do?

Well, there was an easy solution. I ended up sleeping on the floor of Tim's dorm. Since class was in the morning, and afterwards I would head home, it was all good.

It's funny, that I have been in situations and places, that I really have never been before. It was all fun, and while I did get a smidge frustrated, all ended up well. I met new people, had nice chats, and things ended up happy.

This past tuesday, I went to visit someone brand new.

We watched two movies, and he was a tad bit aggresive. I mean aggresive in a sexually forward away. He was sure pushing for that.

I typically was having nothing of it, but did watch the movies, since I have never seem them before.

I would not mind going to karaoke and what not, but come on, turn down the hormones. People sometimes are unbelievable.

Anywho, it was an interesting evening none the less.

I just undid an odd habit I've kept.

I think because of my mom, I've gotten in the habbit of setting my clock ahead by a few minutes. In all theory it's supposed to help with being late, and so on.

Well, turns out, it's an easy thing to adapt to. I still managed to be late at times, but it was late in pseudo-time. I know that time it really is, since I know the offset of the clock.

The clock in my room (both of them) run ahead by 15 minutes. The clock in my car runs ahead by 10 minutes. I have reset my room clocks, and will be resetting my car clock in the morning.

It will take a little bit of time to get adjusted to the fact that I no longer need to perform a subconcious subratciton on the clocks. Should be fun to see what happens in the next few days. It's weird, that I always keep time in stardard time, even though my clocks are ahead, again, that's the reason I'm letting them be in real time.

People have many silly habbits, most serve a purpose, but some just stick for the sake of being there.

So, I was on Friendster, and someone asked me what my plans are after graduation.

Here's the reply:

Ahh, that one is a fuzzy one. I know that after I graduate, I might spend some time in Europe, maybe go to school some more, or maybe work. I am considering learning a bit of Italian and German before I do that.

My field is CS, but I prefer to work more in the design of things, and also help formulate new ideas. Yeah, I can hash out code forever, but I want to do something more innovative.

I still haven't figured the final place where I will live in, since an interesting job offer will probably take me there. I like to keep all my options open, but I do plan to travel a lot.

I also might get involved with mom's businesses. She doesn't currently have one, but she loves to start them. She's odd, but it's nice to help out on her ventures at times.

And I might also just end up teaching CS or something of the kind in Brazil for a bit, but since they tend to kidnap people, I might think twice. My uncle can probably provide me with bodyguards.

Ahh, I have to say that my life always manage to get just a tad more interesting, as I go and explore.

Well, let's start with yesterday night. I went to Karaoke with the wonderful people of the GSU Alliance. I didnot step up to the microphone until the end, but I did sing, with all my might, all the songs that played on the screen. I thought it was very much fun, and interesting.

Afterwards we went to Joe's on Juniper. That was an interesting affair. I stayed the usual extremelly quiet and reclusive me. I didn't know anyone much at all, and most people were having wonderful conversations withing their own little conclaves. I chimed in once or twice, but not much overall. While my reclusion did subtract a bit from the overall enjoyment, I have to say, I still enjoyed it.

People are always interesting to me, regardless of my mood. I got to see, and (kinda) meet a lot of new people. New faces that I will probably see again. Just sitting there and listening to all that was going on, was captivating enough.

There were the loud people, who by the end of the night ended up a bit all over the place, they were on my left. They had a charm of their own, and were a pretty tight group (regardless of how long ago they might, or might not have met)

On my right there was a more quiet group. They talked more between themselves, and there were a bunch of 1 on 1(2) conversations going on. Again, interesting people to see.

I did end up talking to a fellow directly accross me by the end of the night. He seemed nice enough, and friendly. Besides, he was a CIS major, and that's closer to my roots.

I have to put myself out there a bit more, otherwise I will end up attending events of almost hundreds of people, and yet manage to actually meet 2 or 3 of them. See, now, that's just a waste of meeting time. People are always fascination, so the more one knows the better, even if it is for one hour, one can still learn something from them, or just enjoy the experience.

Ohh, the food was rather über late. An umbrella knocked a power cord, that ran to the kitched, and operated a central system, and in effect made everything go dark. I'm amazed that noone got snippety as they got hungry. A well behaved group of people.

Ohh, and physics, yeah, well... Let's just say that studying for tests pay off. I had quite the oppostive happen. i skimmed ovef physics, and did the homework for the sake of finishing it, without writing much down. Afterwards, there was nothing solid to go from on studying, and besides, the other classes jumped in a bit, heh, silly other classes, all up in my physics. *grins*

Anywho, food beckons me. Adieu.

Yes,

It's the shocking, one could say.

I went to the school gym, and got all pinched, and measured. They did body fat of various parts, and I have to say, it could be better. Granted, I have not worked out in such a long time, that it makes sense.

We also tested my endurance, and muscle strenght. I'm mostle below average, except for my legs. The legs are well above average. Go Go Legs. Ahh, and we did a treadmill thingie to measure my aerobic conditioning.

Anywho, I will be making this a weekly occurance. Yes, me, Marcio, actually working out, in a schedule. Again, it's shocking.

Now, I just have to figure out how the workout laundry is going be like.

*grins*

I, Marcio, solemly swear, to filter out the non-constructive blips from my stream of thought to the best of my capacity.

There we go, that was the one line that solidifies the click. I gotta admit, I was grinning, because it sounds so silly, but it serves it's purpose.

It pretty much amount, to the simple fact, that every time I start thinking of doing something that ends up accomplishing nothing usefull in the long run, I'll just mentally scrap the idea for something better. It does allow a lot of room for consideration, but that is why we are humans.

Ok, now, time to eat, because food sounds highly constructive at this moment. *grins*

ps. I do have to mention the click is quite heavy and intense, but still within the adjustments and regulations of being a living breathing marcio.

Change Change Change.

Certain things I know are quite solid, and there is no reason to change. Those are things that I have accepted as immutable (they are relativelly so, but solid enough to be outside the scope of the "click")

I have made strides in many areas, and I am quite happy. The plans from now on are wonderful.

I just need some things to click together, to make the magic that is me resonate with more hoorah.

As always, I like blogging about resolutions, and my future plans, but let's get the click started.

I did a good job at reorganizing somethings, per previous goals, but have realized that I need to realize my reorganization plan. *grins*

I am thinking of something more mobile, and allertive. I seem to forget to check things at times, and a beeping or pop-up sure helps freshen up the memory.

The "click" is redone from now on.

Moving, Moving, Moving.

The status of all to come slowly shifts to a decisive point.

Life is ever changing, and it's great, still, when one trips up on all the rough walks, things scatter a bit.

Gathering the lost thoughts, and moving forward is always an interesting task, but this continuous rebuilding freshens things up, yet, it does cause a fair amount of delay.

Right now, there are many things, all outcomes from attempts to realize goals, all laying there. They are all import, and the gathing yields good results.

I'm slowly getting everything together, yet slowly it throws off other things that I carry along.

The attempt to complete offsets the rest of the priorities. Old habits contribute on a domino like effect of the circumstances that help dishevel the very thing that was being reconstructed.

Slowly I move past the offsets, and manage to complete things successfully, as I always have. It's just mighty annoying to have to go through the motions to do things that could be simply done without all the hoo-ha.

As I have always say, it's an exercise of relative effectiveness, and a challenge which I strive to surpass every time.

Ohhh, it's another stage.

This one will be focused on getting all things me in line.

It's about figuring out what I like doing, and going to do it. It's about having fun, and ejoying myself.

Now, I just have to manage to not do skematic plans, and so on. Yes, I will prepare, but plan.

I had a chance chat with Mike in the afternoon, he agreed we needed to talk.

He apologized a bit, and and asked if it things were going towards finality, and I said slowly yes.

He had to go back to his meeting, and we decided to talk at 8:30pm.

So, at around 8:30pm, he calls.

We talk, I spill my heart out, sob a bit, and slowly finalize the relationship.

It was wonderful, but over the past few weeks things did not go so well.

Nothing bad happened. He's still a wonderful guy, and I still plan to keep him in my circle of friends.

Still, it's officially over, and that's that.

Well, here comes an entry that I don't like to think about.

Over the past few weeks, I have weighed in a lot of things, and have had a chance to think a log. I talked with friends, and checked all options.

Things were going wonderful with me and Mike. We had a grea time, and things were enjoyable.

Now, it's nowhere near what it used to be. Things changed a fair amount when he moved to Athens.

My warm and friendly boyfriend faded away. The sweet words decreased, and the calls ceased.

It seems I can't lift him up, I can't make him happy.

I put my best effort forward, but to no avail.

So, faced with a decision, I've made my mind. I have told him we need to talk, but he has brief amounts of time to talk. I wish to talk with him, and see how things are before finalizing anything, but... I just don't know.

I dread the moment if things go a certain way. No matter what one plans, one can't change the circumstances and events that arise afterwards. So many dreams, wonderful thoughts, and great things all in line.

We shall see what will be...

This one is a realigment stage. All the things have worked well so far, but I have to give it all a bit of sync.

This is where I start getting things organized.

I started doing it today already, getting new folders for things, and tools to organize.

I've started scheduling some things and planning around.