February 2006 Archives

Today, I start a new approach to old problems. We shall see how it goes.

What exactly consists the general term of being attractive.

I think I am attractive, yet, when walking around, I don't seem to fetch many looks.

Online, I get hit on a decent amount. Well, that is considering, I am on more dating sites that I would ever admit to. Most of the time, people just want a quickie. I frankyl don't reply. I could if I really wanted to, but meh...

Still, a lot of times, I can chat with a person online, or on the fine, things are fine. But apparently I don't exude an air of attraction when walking around.

There is of course reasons for it. While I am confident, I see my flaws to much, and there is a decent chance that people can feel that. Still, i am working on them, and they are something that is becoming insignificant. Comaparing to how I was in the past, I have improved leaps and bounds. I used to be socially inept, and most of the time walked with my head down. I can walk with my head up now. I smile around people, and I can talk without issues.

People are attracted, and I like that. I have gotten complemented, and that's rather nice. I don't live for that, but I don't shy away from it either.

So, there is no troubles in my world, but there is room for things to flow more decently. I do have to stop comparing myself with all the other people. I find some many different people, with different attitudes, looks, etc attractive. So, there is no point in trying to attain anything they have.

The point is to improve myself, for my own benefit, if other people like it along with me, all the better. *grins*

I'm happy, things are going great, and they are only getting better.

Everything is progressing as it should, and while some deadlines are tight, I deliver.

Still, that does not seem to leave much time for social things. I know that it's part of the territory when one has a heavy load of classes, and still works.

I do meet new people, but the only time I ever see them, is if I happen to go to an event, that they are involved with. Sometimes, there is a hi, or a hey, but there is nobody there afterwards. Once the even is over, everyone parts way, and so be it. It's akin to having many friend, and yet having none.

I have, many times, in long lenght, talked about this, in the past. That is simply because it repeats.

Granted, this time, my life IS balancing out. The fact that I don't have a thriving social life is not detracting from the other aspects of my life. It would be nice for it to complement it, but that will come with time.

Latelly, I've been able to focus, and finish tasks without much issues. That is, when I actually sit down and do it. I still have the old habit of neandering around, and avoinding it at all costs.

My group projects are interesting, and I am learning a whole lot. Nothing bad is surrounding my family, so that is good also.

As they say, it's all up to me. Keeping friends takes time, commitment, and energy. i often just don't bother with it. Hence, the outcome. I still manage to get myself conrnered out of things, but this time around, it's not bad, or conflicting, it's just a matter of me being a dork, and moving around incosistently. Eventually, I join everyone again, and all is good.

Some more, things move along, and fine they are. Nothing going out of step or out of wack.

The load at school is going to start getting heavier, and hopefully I can drop a day at work to comply.

My social life is minimal, consisting of usually going out with a group of friends one time a week. Nothing more than that. I am making more friends, and things are getting better in that arena. I am not searching for a mate in desperation, but I idly note, that I would not mind one.

Projects go along well. Taxes are being prepared, and the refunds look bountiful. There are still a document or two coming down the pipeline, and I will wait to see what happens.

Sleep, I am getting plenty.

Exercise, I am planning. I wish I didn't derail things when I hurt my wrist, but I hope to pick things up again soon.