September 2006 Archives

So, sometimes one has to look into the past, to see into the future.

Use the lessons from them, as a guide for what is to come.

So, this past week or so, I've been on a few dates. The last one being the most fruitful.

The date was good, the talk was great, but still, later there was something. Not about me, but him. I realized that it would not be a good time for me to try to get close. I knew if I were to hang out with him more, I would probably end up there. So, I slowly got attracted, and had to completelly backtrack, which sucked a bit.

Still, the future is in my hand, as long as I remember, not to err in the way of the past.

I previously had, 2 moniors, my twin 17 inch Compaq CRTs sitting on my desk.

They were happilly together this morning, and I was happy with them, but I then went to school, and left them there, only to be shocked when I come home. My main monitor, the one I have had the longuest, is shoring orange light. No happy green light that comes together with pretty images on the screen.

I pressed buttons, checked settings, and went over connections, and nothing. I then hear... a click!

Nooo, the death of many eletronic devices, involve a click. Indeed, I put my eat up to the monitor, and I hear a faint click. I put my ear up to the top of the monitor, and now it's loud and clear.

My CRT was dead. Completelly dead, and clicking. I put him to rest on the other room, and now his brother sits here by himself.

I, sit here looking at one single monitor, with no extra space, and no dual glory. No tear was shed, but I wasn't happy about it.

So is life. Still, next time I'm getting a bigger one, that's flat. *grins*

Ok, now, yesterday was an odd odd day.

I called my bank, to check the balance on my account, and I get the reply...

"You balance is 0 dollars and 00 cents" Effectivelly: $0.00

A bit of a shock, and not because it was so low. I knew I didn't have that much money to start with.

The surprise as with the fact that it was exactly 0. It was not under, and it was not over.

So, called my mom,whoho shares this account with me. I told her the story, and her answer gave me an *Aha!* moment.

She was putting gas, and she said the pump had just stopped all of a sudden, and it would pump more gas. So, exactly what happened, was the simple fact that the pump had authorized up to the amount on my account, and not a cent over.

So, as she put gas in, my account approached $0.00 . The pump stopped, and the account was empty, because it was not going to authorize something it could not withdrawl from.

I'm shocked that it didn't just overdraft my account, and screw me over.

Soooo weird, go figure. Still, I got a kick out of it.

So, things are coming back up.

School is not drowning my, surprisingly, even though I thought it would. That's fun.

I'm meeting some nice new people, who are quite friendly, and I think i might also start dating again. That should be fun, for sure.

Ohh, and I now have 2 jobs. One, is my current computer lab job. The other is renting apartment, which is pretty odd, since I kinda dislike sales jobs.

Anywho, that's the bulk of it. Should have more fun stuff coming soon.

That's all.

When I look in the mirror, everything seems happy, but inside things are not settled.

It's like watching a ice skater tumble and just not get up immediatly. That's how I feel.

Knowing all my ideas, and all that I can do is in my reach, yet, sit there, not wanting to get back up again, and trying it again until I get them right.

So, inside myself I am screaming, and trashing around, wondering why I can't exactly control my behavior.

Yes, this has always been my eternal struggle, and the barrier that seems to keep me away from successful endeavors. I have wonderful ideas, and interesting plans, but they sit on pieces of paper, or just fade away as I loose my concentration. My daydreaming keeps my hope alive, but my actions beat my hope down.

I sit here, wishing I could close my eyes, and when I open them, I am efficient, and driven. Yet, when I close them, I realize that I am simply tired. I do not know if I simply need to recharge, or if I need to get over my current hurdles to feel driven again.

One of this days, I just hope to close my eyes, and wake up as I wish...

This morning, I was on the marta station. I tried to turn on my iPod, and got the low battery sign. I muttered under my breath, but it was all good, I would put it to recharge later.

So, I have my first class, and then go to study a bit, as typical, on one of the school lounges, since there is always a power outlet availiably.

So, I get there, plug my iPod in, and wait for it to start charging.

It didn't....

I plug it in again, check the plug, check the connector, try another plug, pull cables in and out. Still, it has no power. I try resetting it, just in case it locked up in deep sleep, and I get nothing.

At this point, I start to get worried. I leave it plugged in for a bit, just in case it was 100% drained, but it doesn't come back. I just shove it back in my bag, and go back to studying.

I get home, and try plugging it in to the computer, using the USB cable, hoping it was just the charger, but nothing.

So, I've declared my iPod dead. It's had a great life, and great music, but with all the battery shorts it started to have, it was bound to die.

Blue Mini 4GB iPod
R.I.N (Rest in Noise)
2004-2006

So, umm, I have this new job, renting apartments.

Mom suggested it to me, and it's part of the company she works for.

So now, I make $10 an hour, and work friday/saturday/sunday. This should prove to be interesting. Things have gone well so far, and that's not what I had expected originally.

I was really skeptical, and was scared of all the prospective problems I was going to have. It turns out, that there really aren't any problems to worry about. Time passes very quickly, and I barelly have time to blink. It's beggining of the month, so it's rent time. So we got lots of people dropping off their money orders.

I got a fresh staff to work out. New manager, new assistant manager, all confusion. It's like getting an office to run, without prior strunctions from the people that worked there. You poke around, hoping to get some idea about what they were doing. Sometimes it takes a few days to find some important form. Thank god for a nice rolodex. That is indeed a lifesaver.

The office needs more cookies, that's one thing. Everyone loves cookies, and that's why we should have them.