Unaccomplished

Life is cyclical, and so comes a not so happy have.

I'm fine with moving to an apartment for now, and all that. Still, considering I have two jobs that are unrelated to what I want to do with my life, among other things, makes me full Unaccomplished.

Again, a partial fear conquers this part of things. Always thinking I don't have the capacity do apply for an internship, or a job. Also, not having the balls to start on my personal projects. So, all my potential, lays dormant under a veil of uncertainty.

Sometimes I wish someone would just take the training wheels of my bicycle of life, so I can see what I am capable off. Going only with safe easy options, is a place to start, but it doesn't scale.

So, as things are like this, I turn into a more introspective stance, where I will probably shy away from the ones around me. I'm doing my best not to, but it's takes energy to keep things lively. Still, one never knows when things might start to roll in a good direction. I should try my best to make sure that happens.